shift
i celebrated by six year “Nash-iversary” this past August… i didn’t say much but as i sit here and think about it, a lot has happened since then. i was married to someone else, lived in a different house, got divorced… and now i’m remarried with a mini farm and kids. i originally came to Tennessee for music, but honestly, so many things have happened that have nothing to do with music, it’s hard to say if that’s truly the “reason i came” anymore. there’s just been so much more.
sometimes we think of change as a bad thing. we get a plan set in our minds and we don’t want to divert from it less risking being judged as a quitter… there have been many times i’ve had to talk myself off the ledge of calling myself a failure for my previous marriage, the change in the course of my music career, different things that i start and pivot, etc. sometimes i wonder why we’re so afraid of the shift?
with anything we start or stop, don’t we learn something in the process? how do we know if we truly like something or if we’re really meant to go a direction unless we try? why should we be afraid to start something just because there may come a day when the door closes and we’re ushered into a new space?
honestly, the fears feel very real in the moment, but when i break it down and ask myself these things, i get inspired to learn, to try, and dare i say fail. what if we could look at failure as less of a judgment and more like the end of one chapter and the beginning of the next? like any good story, there are seasons, sections, and new pages to be written. what if failure is really just another word for learning? i think it might be.
when i look back at the past 6 years, there have been so many redirections, so many shifts, so many branch offs, detours, and side tracks. and i could look at all the flaws, all the tears, all the heartache and be super discouraged, but as a former athlete, i know there’s no victory without struggle. i know no ground is gained without growth, and sometimes growing pains are real. they’re just not as bad as we want to believe they are.
i want to accept the shift, i want to celebrate the shift, i want to look at the shift as nothing more than a chance to learn something new about the journey i’m on. and i don’t actually think i want a life without shift… because i don’t want to ever be done learning or growing.
where are you in the shift right now?